I love how just putting my headphones in and turning up the volume of a particular song can get my thoughts going. That could be one of my most favorite things ever, sitting and reflecting.
So I start another semester at this amazing school that continues to help me learn, grow, and form who I am. I wondered if I should share the following information about my life, but alas I feel it may need to be said, even if I'm the only one who may read it. I almost didn't come back to CNU this semester. For financial reasons, kind of. So for a good few days at home in Chesapeake over Winter Break I had a lot of thinking to do. I had not been so upset in a long time. The thoughts of how much I would lose if the return to CNU wasn't going to happen for me, whirled through my head. As much as it made me sad, it made me think. It made me think of the future and how much more I need to be planning out my life and my career and i'll admit it...the future's a little scary :) But there comes a time when we have to all grow up, like it or not...I'll never ever forget my dad's vast array of tough-love quotes, but one specifically rings a bell in my head right now: "Life's hard, but it's harder if you're stupid".
That's my main priority right now. To learn. To study my butt off! To take what God has given me and throw my best efforts at it...and currently that's school. An expensive school. What an opportunity huh? In soo many places throughout the world this is just plain not possible. At times I like to take a step back and look at my life. Kev you are blessed man! Do something with it! I have to admit that laziness, sloth, apathy or whatever you may call it..is a big problem I have and I hate it. I get so caught up with things that do not matter.
This is what i'm tackling now. I want so, so much to go out and see the world. I want to get out there and change lives! And these things will come I think. I just need to do what's before me, now though. Isaiah 40:31 - " But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." Oh and trust me I am waiting. I am trusting in His plan. The only good one. I'm thinking and going to be working hard. Jesus is working up a storm in my life and I can feel it. It's for the best and have such firm confidence in that. In His goodness.
Reassurance I think is found in my past. Do you ever just stop and look back at all the good that's occurred in your life? Try and do that some time. Count your blessings. Count them twice over.