Do you really want what you ask for?

I wanted to keep up with this blog first and foremost because I really, truly believe it's good for someone to jot down their thoughts on their everyday lives. Very good in fact. But to be honest It's been difficult. How can I find something interesting and exciting to type when I all I do is go to college and take classes? Should I really vomit up some info from a spanish class and tell people about Mr. Mariano Jose de Larra and how his sarcastic short story entitled "Vuelva Usted Mañana" (Return Tomorrow) depicts the stereotypically lazy lifestyle of the average spanish person?? Uhhh No thank you.

So I was just really wishing for something to write about, something more than boring ole' college classes. And boy did I get what I asked for.

On Tuesday night (I believe it was) I went to the library to record a dialogue with a friend for a Spanish 308 assignment. Simple enough. But almost everytime I go the TribLib I think of my captain's card that holds dining dollars on it and I slowly but surely convince myself into buying a tasty coffee from the wonderful Einstein's cafe. A terrible habit. So, after almost finishing our recording Aubrie and I were chatting it up a little before parting, and I unfortunately make a move that tops the charts on the Most Clumsy Moments Ever list. Reaching for a pen on the left hand side of my computer, I knock my cup of coffee onto the keyboard of my Macbook. Ahhh!! screams through my mind. I grab my computer as quick as possible and tilt it upside down trying to shake out as much of the dark aromatic liquid as possible. Fortunately my cup was almost empty but I would guess a good handful went into the computer. So after a few frantic moments we clean up the mess and part. The screen had flickered on and off before so I was praying on the way home that all would be alright with it. Prayin hard.

On to part deux of the story. To put it bluntly, my roommates and I were late on paying for our gas bill. Darn living in a house off campus that proves much responsibility will indeed by required! Growing is a learning process yes it is. Thus upon returning home our house was freezing and my negative disposition grew. The next few days felt like torture! A college kid with no computer and having to go to sleep bundled up in sweatpants and big sweatshirt isn't the most fun situation to be in. Complaining was not an uncommon occurence.

But Fortunately my week is done and I can say all is good.. After a few days of drying my computer in front of a heater and not turning it on, it is seemingly working just fine, praise the Lawd. Also, we got our bill payed and heat is presently filling the house. God is good.

I'll definitely be cautious of I what I wish for in the future ;)

Think, kid.

I love how just putting my headphones in and turning up the volume of a particular song can get my thoughts going. That could be one of my most favorite things ever, sitting and reflecting.

So I start another semester at this amazing school that continues to help me learn, grow, and form who I am. I wondered if I should share the following information about my life, but alas I feel it may need to be said, even if I'm the only one who may read it. I almost didn't come back to CNU this semester. For financial reasons, kind of. So for a good few days at home in Chesapeake over Winter Break I had a lot of thinking to do. I had not been so upset in a long time. The thoughts of how much I would lose if the return to CNU wasn't going to happen for me, whirled through my head. As much as it made me sad, it made me think. It made me think of the future and how much more I need to be planning out my life and my career and i'll admit it...the future's a little scary :) But there comes a time when we have to all grow up, like it or not...I'll never ever forget my dad's vast array of tough-love quotes, but one specifically rings a bell in my head right now: "Life's hard, but it's harder if you're stupid".

That's my main priority right now. To learn. To study my butt off! To take what God has given me and throw my best efforts at it...and currently that's school. An expensive school. What an opportunity huh? In soo many places throughout the world this is just plain not possible. At times I like to take a step back and look at my life. Kev you are blessed man! Do something with it! I have to admit that laziness, sloth, apathy or whatever you may call it..is a big problem I have and I hate it. I get so caught up with things that do not matter.

This is what i'm tackling now. I want so, so much to go out and see the world. I want to get out there and change lives! And these things will come I think. I just need to do what's before me, now though. Isaiah 40:31 - " But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." Oh and trust me I am waiting. I am trusting in His plan. The only good one. I'm thinking and going to be working hard. Jesus is working up a storm in my life and I can feel it. It's for the best and have such firm confidence in that. In His goodness.

Reassurance I think is found in my past. Do you ever just stop and look back at all the good that's occurred in your life? Try and do that some time. Count your blessings. Count them twice over.